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31/08/2012

broken

 Me and the boy have broke up, 

I don't know what to do,

I love him so much.

I hate myself

!




Ex anima, how did you know? :(

29/08/2012

The thought of college makes me want to jump out of my window,

My relationship is falling apart and I can't do anything to stop it,

My life is just a mess and I don't want to do this anymore.

I have never felt unhappier.

27/08/2012

old habits die hard

Here I am, back to the unstable mess I was at 15. I can't even bring myself to explaining everything that has gone on this summer, without a total emotional breakdown.

Here is a brief  overview:
  • The boy doesn't believe in the idea of "love"
  • The problems he has in his life are probably 10 times worse than mine
  • He is a weird recluse who won't talk to me
  • He has so many problems they're affecting me too! (but if I tell him I am selfish)
  • After 8 months I haven't met his family (it took him 6 to tell his mum after my constant moaning)
  • I can't ever meet his family!?!
  • We argue all the time :(
  • I feel like such a bitch
  • I can't talk to him about stuff I feel like I weigh him down because he has so many problems himself.
I know I love him, but am I being selfish clinging onto this relationship that may be destined to fail?
 I am back to the ol' starving and crying all day antics.

I want to die, slowly and painfully.