Me and the boy have broke up,
I don't know what to do,
I love him so much.
I hate myself
Ex anima, how did you know? :(
The thought of college makes me want to jump out of my window,
My relationship is falling apart and I can't do anything to stop it,
My life is just a mess and I don't want to do this anymore.
I have never felt unhappier
old habits die hard
Here I am, back to the unstable mess I was at 15. I can't even bring myself to explaining everything that has gone on this summer, without a total emotional breakdown.
Here is a brief overview:
The boy doesn't believe in the idea of "love"
The problems he has in his life are probably 10 times worse than mine
He is a weird recluse who won't talk to me
He has so many problems they're affecting me too! (but if I tell him I am selfish)
After 8 months I haven't met his family
(it took him 6 to tell his mum after my constant moaning)
I can't ever meet his family!?!
We argue all the time :(
I feel like such a bitch
I can't talk to him about stuff I feel like I weigh him down because he has so many problems himself.
I know I love him, but am I being selfish clinging onto this relationship that may be destined to fail?
I am back to the ol' starving and crying all day antics.
I want to die, slowly and painfully